Have you heard about the story of The Toughest Father in the world? He is Team Hoyt (actually name is ) check out http://www.teamhoyt.com/ A father and son team that finish Iron Man race together. His son, Rick actually is vegetable since born.
I saw the video CAN. Inside the video, I saw the father and son unconditional love. Something that I dream for since young. Beside the father and son love, the real message behind it is > there are bad and good personality inside oneself.
If you love youself enough, the sky is with you.
Love someone deeply give you strength.
Being love by someone deeply give you courage!
Let start with Loving Our SELF!!!
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Monday, June 30, 2008
Tips to Success : Step OUT
Step OUT! Everyone wanted to evolve. How could you really do that? The tips is to get your hand dirty. You will never experience things if you just sit there and wait. Or just sit there and receiving information.
The fun things about involvement is. Every second you spend to get involve in things. You learn and you realize new things about yourself or LIFE.
STEP OUT to take things in charge. To put things on your shoulder. To be responsible to what you really agree with. Then the world of growth will open up for you.
The fun things about involvement is. Every second you spend to get involve in things. You learn and you realize new things about yourself or LIFE.
STEP OUT to take things in charge. To put things on your shoulder. To be responsible to what you really agree with. Then the world of growth will open up for you.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Train my Time Management
Having such a busy schedule like I am, time is the most crucial thing. Without spending every second meaningfully, you will end up have no result or/and has no rest.
Today, I slow down myself. I give myself excuses to stay late in office. Having that delay, my whole plan of the night (why night? cause my own private time only start after work) delay. With a 3 hours delay. I do not even feel like wanted to continue follow my schedule.
That is a lunatic "I", keep on think think think, slow slow slow and end up push me to the corner and do nothing > No result.
My couch teach me to write down my schedule. Note down "What time to do what!". Put down even your resting time. Follow the schedule straightly. You will find that your time management is wonderful. Until a day, you know are you good enough. Then you can stop note down everything but the important one only.
I know this method work perfectly fine for someone like me (lazy, not determine,etc) I tried it and it work! The first day I use it. I manage to follow 70% of it. Imagine how wonderful is it to have 70% of time throwing into production, produce something good for myself...
What had take over me? Is a message from my heart say "I can never finish so much of my work. I can slow down now cause I will never able to finish it!". Well, this is something not helping me along my path to clarity. I must not fall into this negative energy.
I will start again! Write down my to-do list. Break it down to smaller item if is too complicated. Work it out!
I must be faithful to myself. After all, this is my life.
Today, I slow down myself. I give myself excuses to stay late in office. Having that delay, my whole plan of the night (why night? cause my own private time only start after work) delay. With a 3 hours delay. I do not even feel like wanted to continue follow my schedule.
That is a lunatic "I", keep on think think think, slow slow slow and end up push me to the corner and do nothing > No result.
My couch teach me to write down my schedule. Note down "What time to do what!". Put down even your resting time. Follow the schedule straightly. You will find that your time management is wonderful. Until a day, you know are you good enough. Then you can stop note down everything but the important one only.
I know this method work perfectly fine for someone like me (lazy, not determine,etc) I tried it and it work! The first day I use it. I manage to follow 70% of it. Imagine how wonderful is it to have 70% of time throwing into production, produce something good for myself...
What had take over me? Is a message from my heart say "I can never finish so much of my work. I can slow down now cause I will never able to finish it!". Well, this is something not helping me along my path to clarity. I must not fall into this negative energy.
I will start again! Write down my to-do list. Break it down to smaller item if is too complicated. Work it out!
I must be faithful to myself. After all, this is my life.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Reading English Novel
I am not a reader. I like communication but dislike study. What I do with language is just "until the level I could reach out to people". With this sucking mindset. I dun seriously do something to improve my language skill esp English.
Don't get me wrong. I am not trying to put myself down. I could speak very well. From the way I speak, you will never notice that I am actually dunno much about the language. Cause I can figure out how to speak out confidently or fluently. Can you? I think not much people could. When come to writing or vocabulary. I am stuck!
Adapting the habit of dislike study and have no intention to improve my language. I don't read things that is I not force to read. In school, I will only read the topic for exam. That is the only time I will read. When I was older, I will read for my interest, like health care or something mystery. Story about pass life, about emotion that causes cancer... Even I have great interest but I could take 2 months to finsih a 200 pages book. Novel is never my choice. Cause I dislike story that people make up!
In my coming Basic Leader Program, I suppose to read 3 books. 3 ENGLISH BOOKS.. NOVEL some more. This is really hard for me. Reading in ENGLISH. You know what, I never really READ English story book in my life. All the books are in Bahasa Melayu or Malay in my education until University.
Reading in English some more is Novel really a big challenge for me!
What i am really glad of is > I could get rib of the "Language is just enough if I am able to communicate". I been deny that learning English is not that important cause I can run my day with my level of English now. I am glad that I put that away and replace with "I got to be in English to move on".
Don't get me wrong. I am not trying to put myself down. I could speak very well. From the way I speak, you will never notice that I am actually dunno much about the language. Cause I can figure out how to speak out confidently or fluently. Can you? I think not much people could. When come to writing or vocabulary. I am stuck!
Adapting the habit of dislike study and have no intention to improve my language. I don't read things that is I not force to read. In school, I will only read the topic for exam. That is the only time I will read. When I was older, I will read for my interest, like health care or something mystery. Story about pass life, about emotion that causes cancer... Even I have great interest but I could take 2 months to finsih a 200 pages book. Novel is never my choice. Cause I dislike story that people make up!
In my coming Basic Leader Program, I suppose to read 3 books. 3 ENGLISH BOOKS.. NOVEL some more. This is really hard for me. Reading in ENGLISH. You know what, I never really READ English story book in my life. All the books are in Bahasa Melayu or Malay in my education until University.
Reading in English some more is Novel really a big challenge for me!
What i am really glad of is > I could get rib of the "Language is just enough if I am able to communicate". I been deny that learning English is not that important cause I can run my day with my level of English now. I am glad that I put that away and replace with "I got to be in English to move on".
Monday, June 16, 2008
Ego
What is ego ?
If you think you are not a detail person, then you are actually egotist about you are careless.
If you think you are shy, then you are so egotist about your shyness.
If you do not get over your ego, you will never go beyond that.
How to get over your ego? Prove to yourself you are wrong!
If you are not a detail person, prove that is wrong. Examine what you will be careless and when you will be detail. Some time is not about you are not detail, just that you choose not to be detail under certain condition.
Want to evolve? Then try to get off the EGO within you.
If you think you are not a detail person, then you are actually egotist about you are careless.
If you think you are shy, then you are so egotist about your shyness.
If you do not get over your ego, you will never go beyond that.
How to get over your ego? Prove to yourself you are wrong!
If you are not a detail person, prove that is wrong. Examine what you will be careless and when you will be detail. Some time is not about you are not detail, just that you choose not to be detail under certain condition.
Want to evolve? Then try to get off the EGO within you.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Business Plan That Take 18 Months to Launch
Just back from Guerrilla Marketing course. We will meet again in a week time and discuss how things going.
Guerrilla Marketing or GM in short is really about how to make the marketing work using the minimum budget. Everything are so practical and real. All the attack that you will make to market will bring you result.
The interesting fact about GM is relationship. GM will count the number of relationship earn during month end rather than counting the $ earning. After all, business is about relationship. The business has a product to sell and it all goes back to people.
Everyone wish to start up business. Have financial freedom, early retirement.. etc.. Do you know normally it will take up to 18 months for you to actually make an attack to the market? If you are not ready to maintain the attack, then you consider as not ready for attack. In that case, you needed more time to prepare.
It is not easy to start up with business. A lot of work to be done. I wish to start up my own business by Q4 of 2009.
For the time being, I need to market myself to find a new job!
Guerrilla Marketing or GM in short is really about how to make the marketing work using the minimum budget. Everything are so practical and real. All the attack that you will make to market will bring you result.
The interesting fact about GM is relationship. GM will count the number of relationship earn during month end rather than counting the $ earning. After all, business is about relationship. The business has a product to sell and it all goes back to people.
Everyone wish to start up business. Have financial freedom, early retirement.. etc.. Do you know normally it will take up to 18 months for you to actually make an attack to the market? If you are not ready to maintain the attack, then you consider as not ready for attack. In that case, you needed more time to prepare.
It is not easy to start up with business. A lot of work to be done. I wish to start up my own business by Q4 of 2009.
For the time being, I need to market myself to find a new job!
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Guerrilla Marketing
Yesterday and today I enrolled with a seminar > Guerrilla Marketing. My intention to this seminar is to Market Myself.
One of the toughest thing that I face is my ENGLISH. My limitation in English is really withdrawing my confident to learn more...
GM is very practical kind of marketing and you can actually do marketing using very little budget. Best used for small business with big ambitions.
I guess the thing that I impress the most about GM is they treat customer base an asset and this able to provide them a life time followupable sale.
I was not doing well yesterday. Either it was due to my English is not good and that draw everything back or I am slow. Compare to the people in the room, they are all much faster than I am.
Later at 9am, the seminar will start again. Hope I can follow with the progress of the class.
Kelvin commented, I could be a small group leader. A leader that able to take care of few person in the team. A good personal assistance and a good supporter. I feel so sad that I am just a small group leader, I wanted something more influential. Only an influential person can impact more people. I want to pass on the message of LOVE and grow the junior.
One of the toughest thing that I face is my ENGLISH. My limitation in English is really withdrawing my confident to learn more...
GM is very practical kind of marketing and you can actually do marketing using very little budget. Best used for small business with big ambitions.
I guess the thing that I impress the most about GM is they treat customer base an asset and this able to provide them a life time followupable sale.
I was not doing well yesterday. Either it was due to my English is not good and that draw everything back or I am slow. Compare to the people in the room, they are all much faster than I am.
Later at 9am, the seminar will start again. Hope I can follow with the progress of the class.
Kelvin commented, I could be a small group leader. A leader that able to take care of few person in the team. A good personal assistance and a good supporter. I feel so sad that I am just a small group leader, I wanted something more influential. Only an influential person can impact more people. I want to pass on the message of LOVE and grow the junior.
Friday, June 13, 2008
Basic Leadership Program
Well, I am IN! I had just enrolled myself to a 9 months program - The Basic Leadership Program.
Beside learning to be a leader. I will be trained towards the skills set that I more lead to it. Something really interesting is... I will learn to control my life! Design my life in the way that I wanted to. I hope I can learn "What I want in my life" during this 9 months journey.
This will be a long and tough journey. There are warning given like :
1. If you think you don't fit. Please do not join.
2. Do not waste your energy : Smoking, drinking, fucking around...etc
3. Relationship will be in trouble : If you do not have a relationship, do not start one. If you has a complex relationship, you might lost it. If you have a conscious relationship, that is ok.
4. My life will be putting into a pressure cooker... Cook using the highest pressure!
It seem in this program, we will have alot of break down, clashes. Everytime there is a break down, you will get a break thru and you will REBORN.
This is really what I want. Every time you reborn, you will find a new you! You can leave your baggage and move on with a new you.
I will translate this as : I will have my mid life crisis when I am just 29! Isn't that interesting?
Who is not afraid of mid life crisis? Who in the corporate world is not afraid of being offer a VSS option when the organization think that you are OLD and USELESS and SO EXPENSIVE... ahhaa
I am glad that I choose to stress my life now and get rewarded later..
Beside learning to be a leader. I will be trained towards the skills set that I more lead to it. Something really interesting is... I will learn to control my life! Design my life in the way that I wanted to. I hope I can learn "What I want in my life" during this 9 months journey.
This will be a long and tough journey. There are warning given like :
1. If you think you don't fit. Please do not join.
2. Do not waste your energy : Smoking, drinking, fucking around...etc
3. Relationship will be in trouble : If you do not have a relationship, do not start one. If you has a complex relationship, you might lost it. If you have a conscious relationship, that is ok.
4. My life will be putting into a pressure cooker... Cook using the highest pressure!
It seem in this program, we will have alot of break down, clashes. Everytime there is a break down, you will get a break thru and you will REBORN.
This is really what I want. Every time you reborn, you will find a new you! You can leave your baggage and move on with a new you.
I will translate this as : I will have my mid life crisis when I am just 29! Isn't that interesting?
Who is not afraid of mid life crisis? Who in the corporate world is not afraid of being offer a VSS option when the organization think that you are OLD and USELESS and SO EXPENSIVE... ahhaa
I am glad that I choose to stress my life now and get rewarded later..
Thursday, June 12, 2008
When I am LOVE, the rest of my LIFE will live UP
When I am "LOVE", the rest of my life with live up together with me!
Today is my 3th week after my TCC. Also 3th week of my MCW. During the class just now, I recognize the main 3 'I' that make me 'not working' and the 3 'I' that make me working...
Lets start with with the not working I first.
1. The 'I need sleep' I
"I has not sleeping enough recently", " I will fall sick if keep on like this", "5 hours is too short already", "I need 6-7 hours".
Result : I will always go to sleep without finishing my work.
2. The 'I am doing good already" I
"I done a lot already today, that is enough for today"
Result : My work is not fully completed but I find excuse.
3. The 'Is this excuse or is logic?" I
"Can I do it?" "Is impossible" "Can I really able to do it"?
The I feeling that keep me moving are :
1. "Encouragement" I
"Yes! Good Job! Let see what else to do"
2. "Every Second is so precious" I
" I want to spend every moment of my life meaningful and no regret." Will I know when will be the next time I eat with my friend" "When is the next time I hug my mom"? Time pass and never come back. Cherish IT.
3. "The more I push myself, the most I realization I gain"
This is the commander of all. Which is also what I know. To get clarity!.
All of them will listen to me if I am LOVE. I feel that all of them can listen to LOVE and react to me when I am LOVE.
My Time is precious I growing so much and is keep on growing... Lets start focus on the good 'I' that inside me instead of crying over the bad "I".
Today is my 3th week after my TCC. Also 3th week of my MCW. During the class just now, I recognize the main 3 'I' that make me 'not working' and the 3 'I' that make me working...
Lets start with with the not working I first.
1. The 'I need sleep' I
"I has not sleeping enough recently", " I will fall sick if keep on like this", "5 hours is too short already", "I need 6-7 hours".
Result : I will always go to sleep without finishing my work.
2. The 'I am doing good already" I
"I done a lot already today, that is enough for today"
Result : My work is not fully completed but I find excuse.
3. The 'Is this excuse or is logic?" I
"Can I do it?" "Is impossible" "Can I really able to do it"?
The I feeling that keep me moving are :
1. "Encouragement" I
"Yes! Good Job! Let see what else to do"
2. "Every Second is so precious" I
" I want to spend every moment of my life meaningful and no regret." Will I know when will be the next time I eat with my friend" "When is the next time I hug my mom"? Time pass and never come back. Cherish IT.
3. "The more I push myself, the most I realization I gain"
This is the commander of all. Which is also what I know. To get clarity!.
All of them will listen to me if I am LOVE. I feel that all of them can listen to LOVE and react to me when I am LOVE.
My Time is precious I growing so much and is keep on growing... Lets start focus on the good 'I' that inside me instead of crying over the bad "I".
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
My Antagonist
Miss S is my antagonist in office. No one in my life will raise their voice in front of me, nor my family or my colleague.
Well, Miss S is something I need to learn to deal with. She is my current colleague, in fact SUPERVISOR.
Everything I did seem to be so wrong for her. She just enjoy pressuring me so much with her authority.. Well, how I react? Keep quiet and accept all lo...
I do not know that I have so much defense with her until yesterday. SHE WAS ON LEAVE. My colleague told me I look so fresh and energetic. Then I wonder why... Yup.. u r right. I am very tense when she is around the office. I don't know when is the next moment she will come to 'cari pasal' with me.. It goes to the extend of I can even recognize her FOOT STEP.. my god..
Can you imagine how much energy I put to protect myself against her? I can't tell you how much energy I lost but I really experience the energy that I re-gain when she is not around. In short, when I do not have to build up the defense system, I have so much extra energy.
This is something sucks. I want to get rid of it. Lin coach me to see her in the positive side. If can't find a possible side of her. Go for something that neutral. Today I try to see her as a COLLEAGUE (Neutral) and as a LOVELY MOTHER OF TWO (Positive). So far, she don't act funny to me. Lets try it again tomorrow and I will share again my experiment.
Well, Miss S is something I need to learn to deal with. She is my current colleague, in fact SUPERVISOR.
Everything I did seem to be so wrong for her. She just enjoy pressuring me so much with her authority.. Well, how I react? Keep quiet and accept all lo...
I do not know that I have so much defense with her until yesterday. SHE WAS ON LEAVE. My colleague told me I look so fresh and energetic. Then I wonder why... Yup.. u r right. I am very tense when she is around the office. I don't know when is the next moment she will come to 'cari pasal' with me.. It goes to the extend of I can even recognize her FOOT STEP.. my god..
Can you imagine how much energy I put to protect myself against her? I can't tell you how much energy I lost but I really experience the energy that I re-gain when she is not around. In short, when I do not have to build up the defense system, I have so much extra energy.
This is something sucks. I want to get rid of it. Lin coach me to see her in the positive side. If can't find a possible side of her. Go for something that neutral. Today I try to see her as a COLLEAGUE (Neutral) and as a LOVELY MOTHER OF TWO (Positive). So far, she don't act funny to me. Lets try it again tomorrow and I will share again my experiment.
Cherish every moment you have....
I am learning on time planning or time management recently. How I started it?
I engage myself into too many activities. The "too many" will mean like, I use to do nothing after work. I either staying back late in office or go home do nothing but just wanted for the arrival of 11pm. Why 11pm? cause that is my time to bed. Now, I have so much things to do and I can't even manage it all. Sleeping hour definitely been cutting down.
Efficient time management enable me to work on to all the 'to do' item in my day and sooner i got the message of 'Every second is so important"!
For example, today I find out that I cherish the time I spend with people around me so so much. For example lunch, it used to be something that I will do everyday with my lunch 'geng'. Now, I hardly able to have every lunch with them. When I have the chance, I will make sure I count the time goes by minute, second.... Every conversation we have, every laughter we make, every experience we share, every gossip we talk about... All the 'contain' of the lunch has become so meaningful. AM I take it for granted? Yah, I was. Lunch with my geng is something that I consider ' come in a package' for me. When I losing it, then only realize how special it mean to me.
This phenomena apply to all the things happen around me too. My housemate, Didi. She might be leaving SG for her new missionary posting. I just knew about it today. Very sad after knowing that. We never know when will be the next time we meet each other again if we are apart.
Will you know when your love one will be leaving you?
Are you sure your parents will be still around you when you have enough 'ability' to love them and take care of them?
Worse... Will you die tomorrow? haha..
If I only have few more days to live on. I will be praying hard wishing I could go back to x years ago. So that, I could start my life again. 'Re-do' the things that we regretted. Well, we all know that is impossible. Time goes mean goes. A second passed mean passed.
How could we make sure every moment that we spend is up to what we wanted and have no regret?
I am learning that now. My desire for my life is still very strong.
The one who are reading now. I hope you are too...
I engage myself into too many activities. The "too many" will mean like, I use to do nothing after work. I either staying back late in office or go home do nothing but just wanted for the arrival of 11pm. Why 11pm? cause that is my time to bed. Now, I have so much things to do and I can't even manage it all. Sleeping hour definitely been cutting down.
Efficient time management enable me to work on to all the 'to do' item in my day and sooner i got the message of 'Every second is so important"!
For example, today I find out that I cherish the time I spend with people around me so so much. For example lunch, it used to be something that I will do everyday with my lunch 'geng'. Now, I hardly able to have every lunch with them. When I have the chance, I will make sure I count the time goes by minute, second.... Every conversation we have, every laughter we make, every experience we share, every gossip we talk about... All the 'contain' of the lunch has become so meaningful. AM I take it for granted? Yah, I was. Lunch with my geng is something that I consider ' come in a package' for me. When I losing it, then only realize how special it mean to me.
This phenomena apply to all the things happen around me too. My housemate, Didi. She might be leaving SG for her new missionary posting. I just knew about it today. Very sad after knowing that. We never know when will be the next time we meet each other again if we are apart.
Will you know when your love one will be leaving you?
Are you sure your parents will be still around you when you have enough 'ability' to love them and take care of them?
Worse... Will you die tomorrow? haha..
If I only have few more days to live on. I will be praying hard wishing I could go back to x years ago. So that, I could start my life again. 'Re-do' the things that we regretted. Well, we all know that is impossible. Time goes mean goes. A second passed mean passed.
How could we make sure every moment that we spend is up to what we wanted and have no regret?
I am learning that now. My desire for my life is still very strong.
The one who are reading now. I hope you are too...
Monday, June 9, 2008
How to capture the thought?
There are too many things I wanted to note down daily. Some are good and some are not. I must figure out a way to filter the information that 'not work' for me. At the same time, keep the information that work for me.
Before I started to write, I thought most properly I will express my unhappiness of today and how sad I was when I cried in the office just now. When I about to start, the question of "Why I want to note this down"? came across my mind... Why I want to express my unhappiness by marking it down and read it every time I read my blog?
I guess this is the reason:
I used to 'pretend' like a weaker. So that people will feel sympathy with me. I just enjoy having that kind of attention. When I realize this, I feel like I was a 'Love Beggar'. "Oh please, please give me some love, I am hungry... " It is fun to look back, and great sense of 'graceful' to be able to laugh at previous action.
Well, I am learning to love myself now. So I am dropping the 'little pitiful' girl image of mine... Lets see, what I should do with the items (incidents, relization etc) that work for me.
Speed note? Recorder? Em... I think speed note will do...
Before I started to write, I thought most properly I will express my unhappiness of today and how sad I was when I cried in the office just now. When I about to start, the question of "Why I want to note this down"? came across my mind... Why I want to express my unhappiness by marking it down and read it every time I read my blog?
I guess this is the reason:
I used to 'pretend' like a weaker. So that people will feel sympathy with me. I just enjoy having that kind of attention. When I realize this, I feel like I was a 'Love Beggar'. "Oh please, please give me some love, I am hungry... " It is fun to look back, and great sense of 'graceful' to be able to laugh at previous action.
Well, I am learning to love myself now. So I am dropping the 'little pitiful' girl image of mine... Lets see, what I should do with the items (incidents, relization etc) that work for me.
Speed note? Recorder? Em... I think speed note will do...
Sunday, June 8, 2008
To Have a Stand
While talking to my friend yesterday, this sentence came out from my mouth "I don't want to live a life that always wanted to please people". Oh my god, what I had just said? As a result of not loving myself. I tend to seek for recognition from people. What I did was, keep on pleasing people around me, so that they feel that I am in their geng or I am one of them or simply they like me...
Is really tired to keep on sourcing for this from other people. Let search for the answer inside me.
Lin previously share with me about STAND. What my stand when I do something. Whatever things that I do. From a very small thing like choosing the plate of food that I want to eat, to the life that I want to have. All action involve a STAND!
I been practicing this for few days and now, I found i am more present! For every action that I did, I know why I am doing it. I am looking forward to feel the present of every second of my life.
So, what is your stand reading my blog?
Is really tired to keep on sourcing for this from other people. Let search for the answer inside me.
Lin previously share with me about STAND. What my stand when I do something. Whatever things that I do. From a very small thing like choosing the plate of food that I want to eat, to the life that I want to have. All action involve a STAND!
I been practicing this for few days and now, I found i am more present! For every action that I did, I know why I am doing it. I am looking forward to feel the present of every second of my life.
So, what is your stand reading my blog?
Friday, June 6, 2008
My Stand to Start A Blog
Writing a BLOG is 1 out of 5 of my Daily Damnits. What do this daily damnits come into my life? Well the story begin like this :
My desire to be faithful to my life get stronger and stronger ever since I attended a seminar -> The Courage to Create organized by ECI (www.liveyourmark.org). The organizer is very professional. They are keeping an eye on the participants progress by utilize a program called -> MCW (Making Courage Work) Project. Of cause, I am definitely in! My desire of being responsible to my life has never faded...
Every participant of MCW will choose a Primary Project and a Secondary Project. I am very sure that my primary project is to find out what kind of inborn skill set that I lead towards and utilize it in my career. What I am busy looking for now is a change of "Job Scope". I am dieing to show off my skills and polish my SKILLs along the way I used it, so that I will become more powerful.
There is a beautiful lady or my coach ( call her Lin), is there to guide me to find out what is really inside me. Along the way, I found that -> My destination or the VALUE of my career is to be someone who is capable to grow the people that has potential. To be able to grow people, I need to be good. I also realize that I always want to spread the message of "The world is beautiful" to every residents of this earth.
Secondary Project is tough! The title is "SELF LOVE". I used to feel that I dun love myself. I felt that is so hard to LOVE MYSELF. Everything that I do, I just want to please people so that people will like me. I dun get this awareness until TCC. You know why am I having so much trouble? Cause I am very 'ke-poh' I get myself involve in other's people's problem, when I dun even capable to handle myself.
Can you imagine that? A 1% mature person (which is me), trying to help people to solve thier problem? How much I can help? 0.5% of the issue? and I leave for myself 0.5% or even lesser? That is ke-poh or stupid!
My stand to help is there, but I must be clear that I need to be capable before I offer my hand!
What I will do for my secondary project? I am going to LOST WEIGHT and LEARN GUITAR. I always wanted to lost weight but I give myself a million/billion/trillion excuses to start TOMORROW. hahahaa.. sound familiar to you too?
I need to be responsible to my life. I will start NOW! Right NOW!!!
Beside that, I also want to learn guitar. Since young, I always dream to learn musical instrument. But i dun request from my parents cause I know we are not afford. This desire had kept inside my heart for so long.. Whenever I have the ideal to pick up musical instrument course, my surrounding will tell me "AI yoh.. you so old already. No need to learn la"... OLD? I am not even 30 yet!
If i dun start today, I will never start. Today, I will start my guitar class!
My desire to be faithful to my life get stronger and stronger ever since I attended a seminar -> The Courage to Create organized by ECI (www.liveyourmark.org). The organizer is very professional. They are keeping an eye on the participants progress by utilize a program called -> MCW (Making Courage Work) Project. Of cause, I am definitely in! My desire of being responsible to my life has never faded...
Every participant of MCW will choose a Primary Project and a Secondary Project. I am very sure that my primary project is to find out what kind of inborn skill set that I lead towards and utilize it in my career. What I am busy looking for now is a change of "Job Scope". I am dieing to show off my skills and polish my SKILLs along the way I used it, so that I will become more powerful.
There is a beautiful lady or my coach ( call her Lin), is there to guide me to find out what is really inside me. Along the way, I found that -> My destination or the VALUE of my career is to be someone who is capable to grow the people that has potential. To be able to grow people, I need to be good. I also realize that I always want to spread the message of "The world is beautiful" to every residents of this earth.
Secondary Project is tough! The title is "SELF LOVE". I used to feel that I dun love myself. I felt that is so hard to LOVE MYSELF. Everything that I do, I just want to please people so that people will like me. I dun get this awareness until TCC. You know why am I having so much trouble? Cause I am very 'ke-poh' I get myself involve in other's people's problem, when I dun even capable to handle myself.
Can you imagine that? A 1% mature person (which is me), trying to help people to solve thier problem? How much I can help? 0.5% of the issue? and I leave for myself 0.5% or even lesser? That is ke-poh or stupid!
My stand to help is there, but I must be clear that I need to be capable before I offer my hand!
What I will do for my secondary project? I am going to LOST WEIGHT and LEARN GUITAR. I always wanted to lost weight but I give myself a million/billion/trillion excuses to start TOMORROW. hahahaa.. sound familiar to you too?
I need to be responsible to my life. I will start NOW! Right NOW!!!
Beside that, I also want to learn guitar. Since young, I always dream to learn musical instrument. But i dun request from my parents cause I know we are not afford. This desire had kept inside my heart for so long.. Whenever I have the ideal to pick up musical instrument course, my surrounding will tell me "AI yoh.. you so old already. No need to learn la"... OLD? I am not even 30 yet!
If i dun start today, I will never start. Today, I will start my guitar class!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)